Life's Good huh?

I know I know, I haven't been updating my blog for about 3 months or more. Kinda felt I've abandon this blog of mine! You can hardly imagine that this blog got no visitors for about 24 days and I guess wasn't here for about 2 months too.

Let's cut to the case, I realized after these 3 months and I read my last post which was 10th of May. My life is been superbly good! I know that is it impossible that my life does not have any bad things, but those bad things really have changed me. It changed the way I always think of people, it changed my attitude and of course I've learned about cross-cultural evangelization.

Alright, I know it's bored to hear about what I've learn. How about my love life then? Haha, well I can tell it's pretty weird for me. Because I don't know and still waiting for God to tell me is that Sweet Lady is gonna my precious soul mate. :)

The story is like this:

It was a friday evening, I think it was somewhere in the month of July. It was after BibleKnowledge class in Methodist College Kuala Lumpur. My friends and I were wasting our time hanging out in the college compound and we took quite a long time to walk to the monorail station.

So when we got in the station, I saw one of my friend from FGA Cheras and she is the Sweet Lady I mentioned before(well this is before I like her). I saw she was quite down and bored, probably because her friend was absent that day due to a fever. So I went and cheer her up, just to keep her company.

While we were talking, the train arrived and all of us boys got into the train, but poor her, she was left outside of the train and of course the train doors closed without her and started off. I felt kinda pity for her, so I asked the boys why don't we wait for her at the station ahead. I don't know about the boys, but their answers was pretty disappointing that I expected to be. They did stayed waiting for her with me, but halfway there, they left me alone waiting for her.

So when she arrived at the station(Monorail Station) I was waiting for her, of course I teased her a little bit and we went on to another train station(STAR LRT). While halfway there, we were caught up by some charity scams asking us to give a signature for helping some unfortunate group of children. Well she was caught first, so I was standing dumbly looking at her and the scammer and then about 10 seconds later another scammer comes up to me.

I was also dumbly listening to the scammer and when I grabbed their pen to sign for their scam, she suddenly pulled me away from them, well she pinched my left shirt actually. From there, I started to like her by how she pulled me away from those scammers. :P

Well I felt special about her because it's strange. It's like an odd coincidence planned by God that day. My friend Jonathan and I was actually used to go for another Train Station(PUTRA LRT), instead of Monorail. But lucky we didn't go there because PUTRA LRT was down that day, because my mom told me when she came home late from work by using that train.

Another odd coincidence is, She didn't missed the train once when we got there, it was the second time. She missed the train before when us boys got in the station.

To my feelings, maybe is just only coincidence but I don't know about God's decision for her. Because I totally commit her to the Lord. I hope she is the one but I'll just wait because what I've heard from my friends, she's already in a relationship with some guy. I do get jealous at first, but who cares? I don't really need to be desperate in this but committed to the Lord's timing! :)

Aite I gotta go, I haven't take my bath and I have to study at least a subject today!

Nite Y'all.

David

Fairly Freaking Excuses

First of all here, I wanna kick my freaking ass for all the stupid things I did. I've been super lazy, I don't feel like going to school all the times. First of all, I promised one of friend and she's Mama-T, I promised her that starting two weeks ago, I'll stop skipping school, but you know what happen, I broke that promise.

Technically in my heart, I promised God that I will stop. Well in the Bible says we can't swear to God on the things we can't do and that will a sin and Jesus said do not swear, but let your yes be yes and let your no be no.

For a gazillion times, I wanna say YES!! I want to say yes to the things I wanna do! I hate the things I'm doing. I wanna do what is good, what is good to my influence and what is good to the soul. My soul is like crazing for intimacy of God. My soul is crying out more of him. My life is like chaos, I can't lead my own life, I want to share this to someone that can listen but there's none. God is there for me, I always ran back to him, but I'm just like a little kid, getting hyperactive with things around me, playing like a kid like no one else's business, if I'm playing with fire, I don't even know.

I kinda imagine God always saves me from the fire I'm playing, He will be mad at me, because I can't be obedient enough. The vision of a friend on one praying gathering said she saw a child in her vision kept on running around but when it's time to put on the armor, this child is reluctant to put on the armor and still running around and have fun.

It's funny that actually that vision is for me, is telling about me. Telling about my behavior that wouldn't care to wake up and that time I thought that vision is for the people.

FOR DARN SAKE, I am going to wake up, to stop myself from enjoying all these pleasures of the flesh. I wanna grow up in spirit, no more in physical because physical growth made me more DUMB DUMB.

Well got to go, Starting from now. Let's see how much I'll change. :)

Signing off,

Dave

Deep Desires

Awesome, I guess I finally achieve the longest record of not updating my blog. Hmm I guess it been a month long or more. I guess I have to give some excuses for not updating? I guess NOT!! Haha Nah, I'll say my excuses anyway.

1st, well I was pretty lazy. I actually wanted to blog during this past month, but I can't think of anything, and I got lazy all the sudden so I went to play some games. :P

2nd, I was pretty tight in my schedule. Having a lot of home works, been to a lot of extra classes and recently was busy practicing for EB2.

Alright, who cares about my excuses, what I really wanted to write in this post is my deepest desires in my life.

After seeing how the world goes by, I felt life is getting pretty complicating and evil, and utterly boring. Wherever you go, wherever you are, everywhere is just the same. We often complain the place we now living sucks or doesn't meet our needs. Other places are also the same.

The most horrifying truth I get to know, was that the place of my dreams was full of sinful lust and practices. I cannot imagine even in our everyday music was some kind of weapon to destroy humanity, destroying hopes and losing the sense of reality.

To face the truth, mankind is forgetting who is God, and the day is getting nearer. To confess, I am also reluctant for that day to come because I still want to enjoy the adventure of this world, I feel life is fun because everyday is a blessing from the Lord. I can't wait to see my future that God had planned ahead, I found life is AMAZING with what the Lord gave me.

So my deepest desires are of course to change a heart, so that the world can at least change, especially to change my own heart 1st. My deepest desires also includes getting closer to the Lord. I desire to do good. I desire to see a change in my life.

My desires are also to leave a legacy in this world and also I desire to have the Most Gorgeous Wife and the most precious person in life. I desire to have the long lasting and eternal relationship with her. :) (Well the gorgeous means the most beautiful pair of eyes. 0.0) :P

My last desire is to score my SPM this year, because I want to prove myself that I can be discipline. I can schedule and take control of my life and time. Probably from this time onwards, I am starting to change and be organized.

Well I guess this is all I can write on, cause I got to go, I can't just leave my brother to cook on himself. See y'all people. Take Care :)

Signing Off, Davey. :)

Being Chosen.

Just recently, about two days ago, the SPM results was out and I was the interviewer by doing some interviews with those people with good and amazing results. Well just to confess, I didn't did my job, I was sitting in front of the stage hall watching and looking at people and leave the interview job to my friends. I was pretty dismal and depressed that day, the reason was I was scare and worried when I saw those results of my SPM friends. Wow, I said not all of them got the results they hope for, even though they did all their best in this exam last year.

Well, literally I was sitting in front of the stage being EMO. Of course, I was thinking about my coming SPM exams. I was hoping the best for it, I pray and dreamed of getting good results. I dreamed that I can do it, I can try to get the most amazing results that I ever did. I dreamed of getting 11A's.

But in front of everybody eyes, I'm just a lazy bump who can't start move his butt and start studying. He can't even do his home works well.

While I'm still thinking and EMO-ing, some how one of my teacher saw me and called me. So I rushed to her side and asked what's the matter. Amazingly this is something I never heard before, not until that day. You know what my teacher said? She said this and it touches my heart:" David, you must try your best in the coming SPM, you are a Leader, everyone is expecting good things from you. But do not study of your own, instead study with the mighty strength of Christ."

Wow I said. A leader? When did I become a leader in front of people's eye? Who made me leader? What good things have I done? I'm not a perfect student, but in the eyes of people, I'm a leader? Is this a joke I asked?

But I heard a voice in my mind saying:" David, why keep on looking down on yourself? Can't you see how many great things you did for the Lord. Of course, you can't be a perfect person but you desire righteousness and a change in your life, even though you can't do it all the time but you still pursuing it."

But I fought the voice back:" But I did a lot of wrong things, I did things that is ugly in the Lord eyes. I'm just such a disobedient child. I can't do things the right way even though I'm aware of it."

But then voice spoke back in a different and the softest way: " But David, God does not look on

the good things you did. He loves you, the way you are, the loving person you desire to be. Remember what you have learned you are a Child Of God and that's the reason He loves you. You may sin, you may be wrong but God still loves you. But you must pursue His Kingdom and His Righteousness.

After that, I've been thinking, Hold on a second. It is true, I can see ways and paths that God is preparing me. Dreams and the person I want to be is open. I can even see how much God did for me, even though I did a lot of wrong things.

Lord, I thank you for your love. I thank you for many things, I even thank you for the way that you are preparing me. And so I say please please make me to be discipline in this year, I want to do all my best for you, I want to expect the unexpected, I want to do things that is impossible for me but is possible you. Just like Peter and the believers, I pray for boldness, strength and courage to speak of your message. I mean it Lord. In your guidance I pray I never want to be what my flesh desires but what you want me to be. Renew my mind and always be closed to you. In your loving name, Jesus, Amen.

Signing off,

Dave

How Could I Forget

I hate to say this but it's truth, some how I've forgotten how sweet it was my relationship with my Lord. It seems like I took everything for granted, I often do things in my way without really trusting in the Lord. Last Thursday before the holiday of the birthday of Prophet Muhammad, my teacher introduced what is baptism to our class, because we were learning the book called The Pearl in Literature. My fellow classmates doesn't understand what is Baptism so my teacher brought her laptop and showed us.

Wow, even though I'm a Christian, I've forgotten how sweet is baptism. Seeing countless of people receiving and confessing their faith to the Lord was rather a great encourage to my heart. When my teacher showed us a video with the song Amazing Grace(My Chains are Gone). Dang, even though people can't see that I'm crying, but my soul was crying to the Lord, I've said: "Lord, I have forgotten how sweet is Baptism."

These days I intend to relax in the most hectic time of life, I just can't settle down, pick up my home work and my book to study. I am so undisciplined, no matter how hard I strive to do it, I just can't quietly focus on my study.

The sweetest thing is, I still love God with all my heart, but I am just pretty disobedient, like a child running around that doesn't know what is responsibility. Doesn't know when to put the armor of God. I intend to do something that is forbidden and my family have to bear the consequences together.

I wish I can be more mature in my responsibility to do what is right.

I really admire some person's life, where they are so close with the Lord. Especially my dad and

some of my young adult friends from specific churches. I just love to hear their stories where they put on their faith completely to the Lord and how they face their daily problems that is similar to mine.

Well I really want to do something different now. Ain't gonna be loser for I know what's my identity in Christ and I ain't gonna take that as granted anymore.

Signing off,

Davey

月亮代表我的心/The Moon Represents My Heart

Feel kinda weird why I put that old song of Teresa Teng for my title? I'm not gonna share about her but I'm sharing another person who sang her song and that person is Hayley Westenra, a New Zealander.

She as a white New Zealander can sing a chinese song so well. You can hear it yourself on my video playlist in my blog, just look for The Moon Represents My Heart and just enjoy the song. Why I wanna talk about her? I want to talk about her because through her singing a chinese song just reminded how suck is my mandarin. Man, I've neglected my Chinese and now I'm regretting for not grasping it in the first place.

I spent my whole life improving my english, from basics and now to speaking. I even have the American Speaking Accents. For my country mates, they will say I speak like a Masaleh. My speaking is like completely different from anybody, I'm like from other country like I came from America and started to live here in Malaysia. But the truth is I'm not, I am born Malaysian and I never been to America but how the heck did I learn to speak like an American.

Today, I got a comment from one of my CG(care group) elders, she told me that my accents are hard to understand and she's not used to this kind of accent and she encourages not to speak like that. She told me one of her experience and it was the time that she went for a camp and the Speakers for the camp was Americans and she told me she doesn't understand a single word from them because of their slurry accents.

From now on, I finally understand why people thinks I'm weird and laugh of my accents. Because most of them are not used to the way I'm speaking. The point is, I love to be different, to be different from anyone, even the way I speak have accents and is different from country mates. Against all odds, for my dreams, I love to go America. But what's the use?

I'm not saying I hate my own country, but I am person who love to explore and to have in fun by learning things. But I realized this one thing, who cares that I have the coolest accents, who cares my english is the coolest, because one day I'm not gonna used english anymore and that will be the day when I go to heaven. We won't be using any earth languages but a language of heaven where everyone of any nations speak of that language.

Well suffice to say, I'll just have fun in languages, especially to improve my mandarin. Well I don't care, I just want improve myself everyday, and to change what the Lord wants me to be. I really want to commit my life, to say this, I think God blessed me with the gift of learning accents, trust me I can even speak mandarin like I'm originally from China too. Well I believe, that these accents, one day God will surely use on that area.

Signing off,

DaveyDavio

Decisions Again

Okay, there's two decisions for me to choose before June Holidays cometh. Those decisions are for me to go for 2 camps. One is the official Baptist Camp, Mission GAME and the other is a camp for the Whole Malaysia's Churches invited by my friend from LYPG. I don't really know the camp's name, so I'll explain the camp's details below.

Alright, first for Baptist's Mission GAME. Seriously, I really want to go for this camp, and honestly to say, I'm going there because of a girl. An amazing girl with a pair of gorgeous eyes, and a friend I've met two years ago, but never really get in touch to until last year's Heroes Camp. Secondly, I am passionate to know more about mission because I want to Missionary for God.

For the second camp, from what I've heard, I remember my friend told me that this camp is for specially for youths to discover what they want to do for God in their future careers. I want to go there, some how deep in me I still don't know what I really want to do for my career in the near future. More overly, 60% of my conscience tells me I want to be a missionary doctor, but 40% of my conscience tells me I want to do something even more extraordinary like a Scientist or something even less hard and complicating careers.

Now time to choose and think about what's gonna happen. If I do not choose to go for Mission Game, probably I will not be able to see My Crush. Because this is the last time, I'm gonna see her and maybe after this year she's going back to America for college and I won't be seeing her again. Problem is, I really like to see her, she is so sweet and kind, and this never fails, I can't stop looking at her beautiful pair of eyes. I want to get closer probably just only BEST friend which I can easily talk to her. Because I don't really have much of a girl which is a friend to talk to.

For the second camp, I don't really feel there's any thing that I'll lose. But in my heart, whenever there's a camp, I feel God is telling me to go. I really don't know and I don't want decide on my own this time. Experience tells me, I'll suffer a lot, if I choose on my own.

Mainly, I also don't want to choose to go for a camp just because of a girl. I don't know

suddenly, I like a girl that's different from any person here in Malaysia. I don't know I just wanna say, I'll let God to choose, if He lets me to go to meet this girl, then probably He'll bring us close as a friend and probably there's something extraordinary that God is planning for me.

So I'll just wait for his answers! :)

Signing off,

Davey Davio[created by a swedish friend of mine, Tova!! (love her much! XP)]

Curiosity To Find Peace

There's something in my heart that makes me so curious about God. I am so curious about something that I've learn during prayer meetings. During sharing, I've heard many people shared about the visions they saw when they were praying, and the sharing they shared was so deep that I can't really understand, then I compare my sharing to others and I felt my sharing is like a child's sharing with all those simple things about my life but others were so deep and they understand what God is telling them through their visions.

I asked my dad about visions and he told me he himself can see visions too. I know some where in the Bible did mention about visions, and I am so curious to experience this thing call SEEING VISIONS.

Lately, I've been very undisciplined, I've done things that I shouldn't do. I'm desperately seeking peace in the Lord, but I've put myself in too much home works and plenty of school's work, I didn't really plan my time to spend with the Lord. There's a lot of things, I want to learn from my dad, he's been telling that he have peace with the Lord.

I am like what kind of PEACE my dad meant! I am feeling so frustrated about the life style I'm having and I am wanting that PEACE with the Lord. I'm having unnecessary tiredness, unnecessary headaches, I can just screw everything up and I just want my Lord.

I want to spend a quite time with the Lord and just really experience, waiting and listen to him.

I guess I've talked too much, I ought to do something better than this.

Signing Off,

Dave

Extraordinary Sunday

There's one word I want to describe this week's Sunday, and the word is AWESOME!! It's really an extraordinary Sunday compare to my usual Sunday that I only just go to church on every Sunday morning but today, it happened 3 great things for my life experiences.

Today, as usual, I goes to my own church every Sunday morning, we had Sunday school, worship, sermons and stuff. But every of my usual Sunday never fails to give me the great fellowship and time to spend with my youths. Seriously, I love them very much!

After church, I went back home and had a nap so that I have strength to go for a prayer gathering at Hotel Maya, nearby KLCC. I was quite disappointed at first because no one from my church is going with me, obviously I was feeling quite lonely but nonetheless I am going to that prayer gathering for one purpose, that is to seek God in that prayer gathering.

Well something happened, just right after I leave from house for like 10 minutes, I was so blurred and so happy at the same time, that I walked like an idiot walking on the street, running, singing because I was using my headphones with songs playing and I was hanging my rapidKL VIP tag. As I was walking, my tag dropped down on the ground without me noticing, after a few moments I checked my tag and guess what? I was DAMN SHOCKED, all my mind was thinking, without the tag I still can ride the train but without that tag going home with me, my mom gonna KILLs me. I started praying to Jesus, and said please Lord, let me find my tag to be on the ground which I can find it nearby! As I was desperately looking for it, suddenly two Indians or Sikhs came right in front of me, one of them was holding MY TAG! Without feeling shy, I just said sorry to them, and tell them that's my tag, and they was kind enough to give it back to me, as they found it on the ground.

I gave God a short praise when I got my tag back,and hurried off to the train station. In the station, my spirit was talking to God:" Lord, I thank you that those two persons are kind to give back my tag, because if they ain't nice people, I don't think I get the tag back." So in the train, I asked God to bless those two young men! =)

Well for the prayer gathering, it was awesome! Never felt so peaceful and delight in God's spirit, praying for our nation, for our growth, for our generation, and for God to speak to us in many kind of ways. It's been like a month for me, since I have been to a prayer gathering like this and everyday it never fails to let me endured in his presence. Believe it or Not, I spent 3 hours straight just praying and dwell in his presence and I just feel like go for more, is like the 3 hours was so short for me.

After the prayer, our gang the LYPGians went for our dinner in KLCC's food court, we had a lovely fellowship. I've kinda opened up myself to people more, and start some conversation with people. Praise God that the person next to where we're eating ask about who we are, and he's an Indian, and my friend Yew Meng gave him our daily LYPG Prayer meeting's and time.

So after the whole dinner, my friend Eunice gave me a lift to my home with her car. This is the part, where I felt it a bit strange, Eunice is a very nice and the BEST sister in Christ I've ever met but one thing that really made me ponders about it was whenever I talked to her about how to lead my youths and stuff, and I've finished talking about my point, and it's turn for her to reply, she will stop for like 30 seconds or 1 minute long then only she will reply me. For that short silence, I was wondering beside her, thinking did I said anything wrong or something that is irrelevant that made her stop talking.

I got back home with this fuzzy strange about her because this is like not the first time, I've been talking to her. I went quickly to my dad's room and ask God:" Lord, why this sister of mine, sounded a bit strange? Is it something that I've said that made her stop?" Slowly, God lead me to share this with my dad, and wonderfully it was the right answer from God. Know what my dad said?

My dad said:" Don't worry, it's not your fault. Sometimes where spiritual people like your friend stopped in a conversation like that, doesn't mean you have said something wrong. It was herself is communicating with the Holy Spirit, of what to reply to you. I myself(my dad) had experienced with Uncle Michael(mark's Dad) and Pn. Sri."

Wow, what a relieved. To my amazement, I didn't know some people was even that close with God. Haha Well just to say my friend Eunice, is very a good sister of Christ to me. I can say that she really takes good care of me and she did helped me a lot through a lot of things! I really appreciates her a lot and I pray God will bless her mightily for she did for others! =)

Well this is how my extraordinary Sunday was! =)

Dave

A Friend that I'll Never Forget

As time passes, when you're just sitting in your class, listening and learning like about everything for almost 5 years in your secondary school. One sad news just popped out to everybody, while we were electing new committees for our class, our friend Georgina told us that she can't be in any position because she's going to leave for Sarawak next week. Some of us got shocked that she's gonna leave so soon without us knowing about it. As for me, I feel that our class going to be bored with one less friend around.

All of us knew Georgina very well, except me because obviously I'm a boy which I don't mixed to girls very often. So since she's going to leave next week, our class teacher and classmates planned a farewell for Georgina.

So on 7th January 2010, we had farewell party for her! We wrote memory card for her with everyone's signature on it, we gave her a present, and most of all for the girls they gave her a big farewell hug!

Forget the fact,

that I look retarded over here

.

Here is Georgina..

Our Beloved classmate! =)

Okay the girls of our class

Well we're gonna miss her a lot, and hereby I wish her a Happy Farewell, May God bless her and her family, I pray that she'll be blessing to every in her life. For my class, oh well, we're gonna continue our school with my less friend around! haha =)

Dave

Herose From the Dead

On December 9-12, 2009. I have to say, I did not the make the wrong decision to go for National Baptist Heroes Camp. Why I say this, it's because before this camp I was complaining to God that I dislike to mix with people, as you know on my previous post, I've mention that I'm tired of people and don't trust anyone in my life. For another reason, I'm scared I'll get jealous to see her with him, even though I don't have the feeling for her. The last reason was I have another to camp on Dec 17-20.

Okay, on the first day of Heroes camp, I'm still bearing the unwilling heart to go for this camp, the feeling of DON'T BELONG, until that night the 1st session of the camp was something from God. The camp speaker, Pastor Victor Wong shared the all-known story of David and Goliath. As he was mentioning all the points and the supernatural happenings in the Bible and of course the funny Today's Victor Version which put a lot of smile out of everyone.

I heard a voice's from my mind. The voice said:" You see David, God has not forgotten you, instead this very first day of the camp had mentioned your name from the Bible. Who say that this camp is not from God for you?" When the voice had just finished, Pastor Victor Wong then asked of who is age of 16 and named David to raise up their hand. I raised up my hand, and pr. Victor said he got something special for me to do for everyone after the session.

Alright after the whole session, pr. Victor called me out and asked me to sling the stone like the David in the Bible. Embarrassingly, I can't shoot all the stone to the paper above the slide stand. From that night, that DON'T BELONG feeling left me.

Through this camp, I've learn how to be a Hero for this world, how to be Hero M.A.Dness. How to be successful in my studies and of course to place Jesus above everything. I've cried so terribly on the 2nd night as I surrendered everything to the Lord. Tears flowing from my eyes for 15-20 minutes, I can't stop crying when they displayed the crucifixion of Jesus. I was asking Lord, Why? Why so cruel? Why you have to go through all this? Why I complain? Why Am I not appreciating a lot of things? Please Lord, forgive me and change me, USE me, although the past was so hurtful but I still want to do what I'm passionate for, that is to make a difference in people's life and I ended with pr. Daniel praying for me.

Second thing, through the WorldGame, I have to cut this short, because I'm afraid that all of you might going to close this if it's too long. Oh well in the World Game, it was pretty messy and confusing, I was chose to be in South Korea, not to mention I've got to most incredible and awesome team mates. In the game, we have to manage ourselves with enough food, goods and education for our survival as a country. Of course, there's a fear of being attacked by other countries(Players of the camp).

Slowly, in this game, crisis, disasters, corruption, war and unfairness happened(literally I'm talking the process of the game, not real war or happenings.) I was thinking all these things that happened in this game, it's feel so real that all these are even happens in our real world.

Until the last day, pr. John told us that because one man's greed and desire for power can destroy the world but it needs so much effort and people to make the world to be a better place. He shared something about we being Christ's ambassadors, what are we gonna do for the world? He challenged us with that and the most funny part was everyone was changed, they threw down their selfishness, and start distributing all their resources to everyone in the world. Some countries officially made themselves to become a Christian country, but some of countries still have stubborn heart like Russia(in the game) still nuclear bombing other countries.

I've secretly heard one of the Russian's President, they said let us bomb India first and then we only we turn ourselves to be a Christian Country. I was laughing by the side, if this is real, I think God would not forgive that.

4 days have passed so quickly, that I wanted to stay there longer and I met my old crush. I really admired her eyes and I've procrastinated to talk to her throughout the camp. Thanks to my coward self but I got a chance to take a group with her.

I really thank God for that camp. Oh I forgot to mention, through the world, I didn't felt jealous at all when he was with her. Well guess I was to overwhelmed with God's grace and love. I don't even bother those two but I turned to be supportive to both of their relationship! =)

Well that's all for now. Thanks for reading! =)

Sincerely,

Dave!